Searching- A saga ✔

44- So very sorry

I am so sorry, Kanha,

I can't bear to see,

That disappointment,

There's no known ointment, 

To heal the bruise I caused.

I am so sorry, Krishna,

I can't bear to see,

You turn your face away,

In pain, I've come a long way,

But got lost in between.

I am so sorry, Keshava,

I can't bear to see,

The subtle lines of anger,

I miss your incessant badger,

Keeping me sane and safe.

I am so sorry, Kaarvanna,

I can't bear to see,

The downward curve of those lips,

Red as ruby, beautiful as an eclipse, 

That forever called my name.

I am so sorry, Kamalaksh,

I can't bear to see,

You not playing that flute,

Which used to be bliss absolute,

It made me dance and sing and live.

I am sorry, Kamalaapati,

I can't bear to feel,

Your heart rending silence,

I have within, not more defiance, 

Your name is my very heartbeat.

I am so sorry, Sri Hari,

Maybe, I did cross the line, 

This once, I forever lost the shine,

Without you in my life, the shrine,

Of love, feels like a lifeless lifeline.

I am so very sorry, Visalaksh,

For losing my bearings, breaking my heart,

Tears drop down from the long eyes,

Awaiting the long lotus eyed one,

My life would always be an irony.